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Name: Nicole
Location: Austin, Texas, United States
Birthday: 12/18/1985
Gender: Female


Interests: marching band, piccolo, flute, biology, virology, University of Texas, musicals, video games, Family Guy, the food network, CSI, getting rid of my fat ass, Devin, e-mail (I don't get enough)
Expertise: Studying for classes...or not, since I'm not doing that great in calc so far this semester...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical


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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Well hello, xanga.
It certainly has been a while.
Lots of things have changed in my life since I last visited...too many to chronicle.
Myspace is really a much better way of reaching me, and again, my address to that is gonna be
www.myspace.com/nikkikola

...broke up with Wes (well, Wes broke up with me), moved into my own (small) apartment, started my last semester of college (well, before grad school, at least), got a brand new tattoo, have a mohawk (as of this week), dating a couple of people regularly...yup.
My current life in a nutshell.
Also, getting caught up in some bad stuff, but I'm sure it'll pass with time.


Friday, December 22, 2006

I know I never write here or update anymore, but that occasionally, people actually look at this...and I know this isn't exactly an update, and it isn't quite the end of the year yet, but its pretty close...so here we go again...almost a year later.

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Smoked pot, did some other "recreational" drugs, ALMOST got straight A's in one semester, got pregnant

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No.  I was an off/on vegetarian/vegan for a while...currently off.  I'm too poor.

Next year...I'm not going to smoke anymore...I'm going to lose like, 40 pounds...seriously...because you would not BELIEVE how much weight I've gained....and I'm going to do SOMETHING to make me insanely happy.  And graduate from college...yay!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Erica! 

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Bob...still not over that...and it was 10 months ago.  Ugh.

5. What countries did you visit?
Stayed pretty damn close to home this year...don't think I even left Texas...wow.

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
A husband...hee hee....maybe not, BUT, I'd like to make more friends.

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 15th--THAT day, February 25th--my crazy all-nighter with Wes, October 25th--the day that I got pregnant

9. What was your biggest failure?
Losing our baby.  And getting a D in plant bio.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Psh, I'm always sick.  A few bad sinus infections, that's about it. 

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I really don't know...how about my first (legal) alcoholic beverage?

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Wes, because his behavior always merits celebration...


14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent/School...again.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Having a baby...

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Pink Floyd--Wish You Were Here, Snow Patrol--Chasing Cars


17. Compared to this time last year, are you...

i. happier or sadder?

MUCH happier

ii. thinner or fatter?

fatter...like, 20 pounds fatter...UGH.

iii. richer or poorer?

poorer...but just at the moment.  Overall, I had more money this year.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Spending time with the people I love.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Arguing with people about stupid things, drinking.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

First, with my mom and brother and sisters, then with my dad, then back for dinner at my mom's...I can't wait.  I love being with my family in Ft. Worth...

21. How will you be spending New Years?
Either in Crowley or Austin, partying hardcore...whether I feel like it or not, lol

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?

Once, hard and heavy.

23. How many one night stands?

One.

24. What was your favourite TV program?

ER

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Kind of, but just strongly dislike, not so much hate.

26. What was the best book you read?

I had time to read? lol...Fast Food Nation

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Nada Surf, probably...Wes introduced me to LOTS.

28. What did you want and get?

Lurv.

29. What did you want and not get?

Being thin.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?

Man, I dunno...I can never remember what all movies came out this year that I actually saw.  Stranger than Fiction, I guess.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Turned 21...took my anthropology final, had my car overheat on mopac, had dinner with Wes, got TRASHED on sixth street with Wes, Devin, Jen, Justin, Matt and Brendan...because I turned 21.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

If we hadn't lost our baby.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?

Comfortable.

34. What kept you sane?

Liquor.  Hard liquor. lol...and Wes.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Geez...I didn't really keep up much.  George Clooney, probably.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

TOO many...I just can't wait for this whole Iraq ideal to be fuckin over with, mostly. 

Maybe we'll move to Canada.


37. Who did you miss?

My family, Erica

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Well, I re-met Wes and Abbie...other than that, I dunno...didn't meet many.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.

To love and cherish everybody close to me.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

"Aw fuck it...I'm gonna have a party"...lol...ok, not so much..."to find someone you love, you gotta be someone you love...aim high if you have to, do whatever it asks you, you've got another calling, don't let it pass you"


Wednesday, October 18, 2006

It certainly has been a while, hasn't it.
Not much to say.
Still alive (just barely sometimes)
Wes is one of my last remaining threads to sanity.
Right now he isn't here...he's off somewhere having fun with other people...and I'm alone.
And I have a headache.
And life just sucks.


Thursday, August 10, 2006

Wow...its Nicole...making a xanga entry.

If you really want to know EVERYTHING that's been going on...

http://www.myspace.com/nikkikola

Check that out.

If people still care to know, anyway...


Friday, March 31, 2006

I'm a completely different person.
I've changed, I've matured, I've become...myself.
I changed my major from bio to history...I hated every science class I took, and wasn't looking forward to any I was going to take...i realized I was only majoring in bio because I wanted to impress people, because i knew if i majored in what i WANTED to major in, I'd get all that shit from people like "You're so much smarter than that...what could you ever do with THAT degree?"
So what if I want to get a degree in something I'm INTERESTED in, and teach?  Is that bad?
Honestly...I don't know what I'm going to do when I graduate college now.  I had everything totally planned out in 2005.  Everything...my whole future.  Now I have a future full of mystery...and I like it.  It intrigues me.
Since January started, I've lost so many people who were dear to me...emotionally and physically.  There's still pain...but I'm healing.  I'll never "get over" Bob.  But the pain is dulling, slowly but surely. 
I've been enjoying myself...actually going out with friends, and talking to people.  Staying up on school nights until 2 a.m....sure, it isn't good for me, but its a college thing I've never done, lol...
I've been actively looking for a job...which I always avoided before.  What is WRONG with me? lol
And I've been in a relationship I never saw coming for six weeks now.
Who would've ever guessed that I'd end up with Wes again...band camp Wes...Wes I didn't speak to for a year because he did a dick thing to me and pissed me off...Wes who always blew me off....and then I went over to his house, we pulled an all-nighter and he held me in his arms while he kissed my forehead...so completely uncharacteristic of the Wes I thought I'd known.
We've both changed.  That's the interesting thing...we were extremely attracted to each other five years ago when we met and first dated...and now, two completely different people and we're still extremely attracted to each other.
This is...bizarre.
Either way, this last month of my life has been...amazing. (Only the past month though...I'm leaving out the two weeks before that for a reason...)
I look forward to watching six episodes of ER in a row all snuggled up in Wes' quilt, and games of football in Wal-Mart, and bowls of stir-fry every other day...for a very long time.
Life is good.



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